A great man once said," Straight jackin', saves you the Mad cream!"
I don't know what the fuck it means. But it's badass as shit.

Prom 09:

The Shit

The Bomb

The Best

The Greatest

The Tastiest

The Raddest

The Killa App

was so Boss

was so Bangin'

was a little drunk

was a little crunk

was fuckin' crazy

was kicking my ass and slapping my knees.

Prom was awesome.

The Prom Video

I'm so glad the video turned out exactly the way I wanted it to. I've been dreaming of making this video since November and it finally got made. Thanks everyone for coming out and helping, that meant a lot to me. Let's just pray the majority of the school actually pays attention.

I'm busy

Vanessa

do NOT EVER tell him i told you this.

but this is a funny story.

Kurush

omg

let's hear it

Vanessa

okay.

so, its was like, the first week we were dating

and we went to go watch a soccer game

and we bet on what the score would be and i won. i was dead on.

11:48pmKurush

haha nice

Vanessa

so for the bet, i got to make him go streaking.

wearing a fairy outfit.

11:48pmKurush

was he only wearing wings?

Vanessa

so he was naked. except fairy wings, a tiara and a little star wand

11:49pmKurush

ahaha

sounds like ethan

Vanessa

and he had to run down the street and when he got to the top of the hill he had to do a fairy dance under the streetlamp.

11:50pmKurush

what time was it?

Vanessa

so most boys would go up there do like, one little leap and then run back down as quickly as possible.

uhh.

idk, late at night.

after dark

11:50pmKurush

haha

Vanessa

anyways...

but NOTTTT ethan

he gets up there. and i kid you not, for like, 5 full minutes atleast, which is actually a long time tobe fairy dancing if you think about it, he was leaping and prancing and spinning and having a good old time dance on top of that hill

and then he finally came down.

but i must say, i was extremely impressed by his fairy dancing endurance

because like i said, most boys would not have done any dance at all.

the end.

11:52pmKurush

hahaha

can I post that on my blog?

Vanessa

haha

i would say yes

but then, ethan would kill me

Annie Get yo Piece

Last night I went to Annie Get Your Gun, which is a play performed by mostly the theater group and anyone who auditioned.

I was filming the entire show (standing up for 3 hours sucked) for Hal Day who played Annie, the lead role.

Golem told me not to expect anything because he really didnt like the play so I went into the show thinking it was going to just be meh. Turns out I loved every second of it and thought everyone did an amazing job. The guy who played Buffalo Bill was so awesome!

At one point, the battery on the camera died right out of no where so I freaked and scurried to find another in the camera bag.

I took the dead battery out and because I was panicking the damn thing flew out of my hand and hit the wall behind me. "Oops! Poops! Jewps! Hoops! Japs! Gypsies! Niggas! Spics! Crackas! Crap! Cum! Heh, heh, heh....Fuck!"

And that's exactly what I said to everyone when I realized they were all staring at me.

Anyways put put, Hal Day was phenominal and from the looks of it, she can give one helluva buss. She's really fuckin talented and I know she's gonna go places. She does whatever cums Naturally!

P-Spank did a really good job in it, and he looked like he was having fun. And I thought he perfectly fit his role. I remember him saying nononononono at least 3 times.

Josephine, even though he had one line, he did a great job too and succeeded once again in putting a smile on the crowd's faces. I know he'll succeed in his quest on putting a smile on the whole world.

Maybe I should've auditioned, I know I have a pretty good singing voice, but I don't exactly pay attention to my facial expressions. I unconsciously show whatever feeling of emotion I have at the time and make it pretty fuckin blatant and obvious.

I loved the play so much that I'm goin' with Samantha on Sunday.

Oh, and I think today deserves two posts since I didn't update yesterday. Back 2 Back blogs, Sucka!

Prom is gonna be the bomb.com

Today I went to TJ Max, Ross, Walmart, Marshalls, and K&G Men's for my Prom shit.

The only store that had anything was K&G and it was weird there because I felt like such a minority and I was surrounded by fat black guys and black chicks with huge donks holding a crying child in one arm while sifting through the clearance rack.

I looked through everything and got a gold/bronze dress shirt, a gold and bronze tie with flower designs on it (like wall paper) and bought cuff links that look badass as hell!

So I get home and try everything on. I look smokin!!! I was surprised and I usually never say stuff about myself but I really liked the way I looked.

I call Sam and tell her I bought my prom shit finally. She's excited and wants to come over to see it.

She comes over and sees me with everything on and she thought I looked hawt and thought it matched perfectly with her dress.

Later, I come over to compare the colors of her dress and my shirt. Perfect. Her and I are really both excited about prom because I don't really have to feel the need to impress her anymore. I'm myself around her and it's great. I have nothing to worry about. Hell, I even ripped one in front of her and Bonique( her best friend) because I don't give a fuck anymore.

Bitch, I do what I want. Oh and I quit pot yesterday. I'm tryin to get back into shape and get my running started up. And I don't need anything slowing me down. My life didn't take a complete 180 but I'd say a 90 degree turn right into the ass of a innocent mormon boy.

Suck my cock, fuckers!

Bonerama!

So today I get a text msg from Sam in 3rd period

"Hey I really need to talk to u about something thats been on my mind for a while"

I'm thinking all day about this. I'm nervous about what she has to say.



I always do whenever I get a text msg like this. Oops!

I worry too much, but oh well, I'm never disappointed because I expect every possible outcome.

I go over to her house and we're taking turns checking facebook, talkin about more bullshit gossip. It's all good, I enjoy it.

So I finally ask," what is it you wanted to talk about?"
It was bothering me all day and I anxious to find out.

We reseat ourselves on the couch that her cat pisses on all the time. But I can't smell it.

She then starts to say something but I don't remember because I was trying to adjust the way I was sitting ( she's always telling me I sit in the most weird positions and this was going to be a serious conversation so I was trying my hardest to sit normally for a change) I still ended up in some fucked up position. Oh well fuck it.

Sam tells me she knows I like her a lot. Like a LOT. But she doesn't feel the same way about me.

She admitted she likes me but not as much as I like her.

Eh, I was half expecting it anyways. I wasn't bummed out or anything, in fact, I'm great.

I'm actually pretty fuckin good.

So she said she wasn't ready for a relationship and I understand. It's all good, I'll give her time.

"You ARE the nicest guy I've ever known."

Dayum, no one has ever said that to me before. And that was the NICEST thing anyone has ever said to me.

I'm touched.

Anyways, she says more.

"What makes me different from other girls?"

I respond,"Oh my god, you are the coolest girl I know. In fact one of the coolest people ever because what's strange is we have the same sense of humor and act the same in a lot of situations. What's crazy is I usually have male friends, (my guy-girl friend ratio is like 7-1) and I met a girl who is the bomb.com and that's sick nasty."

We exchanged nice things about each other until finally....

I find myself playing with her pussy. So soft, so pink, so wet.

Just fucking with you. That shit didn't happen.

We talk about a lot more stuff. Mostly about how we'll remain good friends and maybe in the future something might happen between us.

She's too much fun.

And this time we didn't have an awkward goodbye.

Since I'm not trying to impress her on prom, I'm getting wasted (well, maybe not totally smashed). It's going to be fucking awesome.

Though she ended our relationship, it was short and sweet, and she'll always be close to my heart.

Quite a Day

Ok, so I keep telling myself that I will finally kiss Samantha eventually. But as of right now, she's kissed me twice. Every time I leave her house, I feel disappointed in myself because I've opened up so much to her emotionally and mentally but not physically. I want to get to know her in all aspects. And no, I don't want to have sex with her right now, no matter how awesome that shit would be. Anyways, here's what went down today.

I'm over at Sam's house today and we're talking about bullshit ( basically) gossiping, and I'm not finding an opportunity to go in and finally kiss her already.


I have to leave because my dad wants me home.

And we have the most awkward goodbyes, and this time she says," I don't want this to be awkward again, so....Bye!"

I'm just like....uhh ok bye.

No hug.

No kiss.

No face-to-face goodbye.

I'm kinda pissed, mainly at myself because I didn't do anything about it.

I get home, talk to her on the phone a little bit about some stuff.

About how we can make our relationship work because we've opened up so much to each other. I've never opened up so much before to anybody. She makes me feel special on the inside. I'm new to this shit, okay?

I'm sitting at my computer

Thinking...

It's been about an hour since I've been over there.

I'm thinking, I'm going to fucking do something about it.

I'm so sick of these awkward goodbyes.

I'm so sick of me not doing anything.

I'm so sick of not showing her who I really am.

Time to fucking change everything.

She's always telling me to take a chance.

Why not for a change?

I get my things:

Cell phone

Keys

Ipod

and I go downstairs and start my car. I race over to her house.

As I get to the entrance of her neighborhood, I feel my pockets... "SHIT" I left my wallet in at home.

I hastily do a 180 and head back to my house.

I leave the keys in my car, and run upstairs.

RUNNING as fast as I fucking can.

My adrenaline is rushing so fast at this moment.

I drive to her house, faster than I did the first time.

I play my inspirational song that I always play before I get to her house.


This song always pumps me up.
I'm waiting for the song to finish while I'm in her driveway.

the song ends, I turn off my Ipod.

I thought it was still on, there's heavy bass I'm still hearing in the back of my head and in my ears.

Turns out it was my heartbeat. I look at my watch to figure out how many bpm it was, it was close to 120.

I turn off my car. Go into her garage.

I open the door to her house.

No phonecall

No doorbell ringing

I walk in, I see her mom is still asleep on the couch, I don't say a word.

I go up the stairs on the right side of her house and see Mark, her little brother, playing CoD World at War.

I'm startled, because Sam said she'd call me when she was done with the computer. And she wasn't in the bonus room where the computer was. Mark was. Sheesh

So I see Mark and say " Hey, what's goin on?" in a kind of serious tone but still friendly enough so I don't come off as a jerk.

He knows I'm up to something, I did just enter their house anyways...

He responds " Hey there Kurush!"

I ask, " Where's Sam?"

"I dunno, try her room"

I walk to her room.

Door is closed.

My heart is racing even faster now.

I can only hear my heartbeat inside my head.

What should I do?

I start knocking on her door

No response.

I call her cell, I hear it ringing on the inside of the room but it keeps ringing.

I figure she's inside, she takes her phone everywhere with her.

She starts calling me back, and I already have my hand on the door knob.

I open it anyways.

She was asleep, laying her bed, calling me with barely a consience to function.

I look at her, she looks at me.

She is shocked," What the Fuck are you doing here?! You scared the shit outta me!!!!"

I'm determined, I got this, I came all the way here to do what I came here to do. It's time to go to work.

I lean in close to her, " I came to give you something"

I was so ready to kiss her, right then and there.

But was not ready for this.

She immediately pulls the covers over her as I lean in closer.

.......

That was my reaction. I didn't know what the fuck to do. I mean what the fuck!?

A girl, who's always telling me to take a chance, I finally do. I actually take a fucking chance, and then this happens. Fuck.

She gets out from under the covers, I sit on the other side of her bed.

We talk for a bit.

She explains she thought I was gonna get in the bed with her.

uh haha yeah right, if it took me this long to get the balls to kiss her ( or at least attempt) I would not try and get in the bed with her, I was wearing my running shoes for cryin out loud.

And she didn't want me to get in because she wasn't wearing pants.

So we talk some more. And we just talk about stuff and watch some tv.

Nothing happened.

But she knew what I was trying to do.

She thought it was cute. I thought it was a fucking failure.

So I leave and we talk about some things. Usually Sam is very tired because she's always at the gym and I highly respect that. She cares about her body, huge turn on for me.


But this time, right after she wakes up she's so uppity and happy. All my emotions of failure fade away. My heartrate goes down to about 90 bpm. I realized how I truly felt about her when she's like this. It put a smile on my face, a smile on her face. And it felt like I've fallen in love with her.

Even though she doesn't like the phrase (which is kinda weird if you ask me) I enjoyed every minute of it. I got a feeling of what it would be like if we got a lot closer. Like we've lived together for a long time.

But that's for another time. I don't have plans on marrying this complex woman, I was just putting it hypothetically. After about 40 minutes, I go home. And think upon another day where I'll get another chance like this.

No regrets, just kiss her damnit.