Let's bust, start the summer off

Change, change, change, change. 4 changes is too much eh? I agree. Change change change. I don’t need commas this time. Screw that. here’s what’s goin on in my life so far. I’m a changed person I’d say. I’ve been megan free for about 2 weeks. and it’s been awesome. I’ve been hanging out with the bros a lot more, I have a lot of ME time. I’ve been able to concentrate on stuff I haven’t before. I really need this time away. She was too stressful on me. too much to think about. and now I’m listening to an awesome song by an awesome professional singer and song writer. harry Chapin, he’s the man. Mr. Tanner is one of my favorite songs of all time. Always gives me Goose bumps. That rat bastard! I sing softly to myself as I sort through the clothes. It makes me feel so happy, it makes me feel so good.
Well, here’s the whole situation with Megan, I am getting over her. Like for real this time, I’ve been bullshitting myself for the longest time that I have gotten over her but I just haven’t. I’ve been kidding myself, and telling myself that I did. I wanted to at the time, but I just couldn’t. Every time I tried getting over her, she would call and I would obviously get turned on and I would think this would work. Every single time, this happened. Hell, it almost happened today when I talked to her on the phone. But for now, let’s keep things completely platonic. I’m done with being in love with her. It was too much bullshit, I don't think she can fully understand me. I have no bad intentions at all around her or other people, I don’t receive satisfaction by being an asshole unless they ABSOLUTELY deserve it. Which is a very rare and seldom occasion. But anyways, I’m still a nice guy I’d say, I still don’t hold grudges or anything and I still go out of my way for anyone. For me, people don’t have to deserve it to receive my kindness. I like handing it out because everyone deserves a chance and everyone deserves to smile. That is what I’ve taught myself; not by a god, not by reading a religious book, but by living life the way I want to live it. My goal in life is to make other people happy, to change people, to make them better people. Obviously, not everyone will get it. Obviously, some people think I’m an idiot who’s too nice and naive but I’m willing to take that chance. Ya know, one of the biggest influences on my life was the movie “Yes man” That kind of person he became by saying yes to everyone and every question is almost like the kind of person I want to become. With limitations of course. Sure, I’ll lose money, I already have. But for now, I don’t really give a shit because when other people are happy, that makes me happy. I try to be as selfless as possible. I wish there were more people like me but then this wouldn't be nearly as fun. Perhaps I’m asking too much.